Why do I have to say goodbye?

In the wee hours of Saturday morning, I was forced to say goodbye to one of my best friends. He was of the fluffy pawed variety and his name was Wallace. I am told writing about things makes it hurt less, however, I don't really believe it. When his daddy died, I thought I had too. That was so many years ago and having to watch Wally go was like reopening a wound.
Some people will probably think, "Oh its just a dog, you will get over it." or "they come and go". I hate that. I have lost so many pets over the years and it hurts like hell every time they leave!
I know what losing human family members is like, I think of Wallace as a family member as well.

Saying goodbye truly must be the hardest words to utter. Its funny how much you take things for granted till someone or something is gone. Its been a little over 48 hours and the silence is driving me crazy. There is no clicking as he walks on the wood floor, no water being lapped out of the toilet at two in the morning, no wagging tail and wet nose to greet you when you walk through the door after 16 hours of lectures and being around hundreds of extroverts and introverts you don't know what to do with.  I opened the fridge this morning and the block of cheese was mocking me: cheese and apples were Wallace's favorite snack. I bumped into the empty water bowl. There was hardly enough water in it to splash out onto my socks. There are no more red hairs on the couch or my jacket anymore. In just these few days so much has changed; no more howling at the police sirens, no more slobbery kisses on my lap.
I would give anything right now to smell my stinky doggy or to pet his fuzzy muzzle again. If I could just see his doe eyes sparkling and healthy one more time...
Looking outside at the clear blue sky and the fresh green grass I can't help but think, "When it rains; it pours."
I love you Wallace, my little puppy, and I will miss you very much!

If you are reading this....

Good heavens! Has it really been almost a full year since I last posted? Yikes! I can and can't believe it! Well....what is a good excuse? Since last year I have finished up high school and moved on to college. When I am not worrying about a terribly important paper or exam that is due in 8 hours, I can usually be found reading fan-fiction or playing Star Wars The Old Republic (well can you guess what my priorities are?) At the moment I have made absolutely nill progress on any of my short stories or novels. *bummer I know! I am mad at myself as well!* I still love pinterest to death and continue to look at tutorials to make Beskar'gam, lekku, or mantrals. I can't wait till I have a good paying job and loans that do not crave attention from my wallet so that I can spend more time on hobbies. I know your thinking "sentiment and wishful thinking" right about now. I know adulting is not a walk in the park...but I am looking forward to a paycheck. When you still a high school graduate you are like in between adulthood and child life when parents paid for everything. You have to figure out how to pay for the things your parents aren't going to short of robbing your local Chase bank. I am rambling again and I think you can tell I might be a little over the edge when Star Wars is involved. Signing out!
PS, I will honestly try as hard as I can to write sometime before next year. :) Bear with me.

Writer's Block

So friends? Do you know what writer's block is? Let me explain. Its the hours you spend sitting upside down on anything...literally anything...and let the blood flow to your head (fabled thought that blood in the head makes your brain work better or something like that.....well I can honestly say all I ever got were headaches) Or how about walking in circles chanting your characters names, trying for inspiration to strike. The music you have listened to the past seven months will not help now that you could probably compose something yourself, you have looked at everything on pinterest trying to find something that looks like your characters, you spend hours looking through movie synopsis's seeing if you can throw a few different things together and come up with something original (with the directors help :) of course) You edit, and re-edit and edit some more, almost to a point where your novel has taken a completely different course. You omit characters, you add characters...think think think!!! But still, saying you have "run into a brick wall" is just not strong enough a term. That was me for the month of January. So of course I voiced my problems to my good friend who suggested I write some shorts, small 10 or so page booklets. She sent me some photo's one of which happened to be an old military photograph. Well I chose that one and a few days later I have more then the minimum requirement of pages. So, because I have such a hard time thinking of things to write on my blog, I have decided to upload this little story in parts. I will start posting soon, and hope you look forward to it as much as I do. I also would appreciate your criticism and opinion. (gently said and clean of course.)
Signing off for now,
Molly D

A Dark Knight

I love costumes, and I love cosplay! And if there is one thing that kills me, it is a costume that looks like I pulled a plastic stretchy thing out of a party city bag. So this year, I decided to make a costume for Halloween that looked cool. That is how this little page started.

I might do some tutorials for little things later on but right now, the finished product. Now this project was a simple one but it felt like it took me forever to make. That was because this is my senior year in high school and its been killer.
So it consists of (and I cheated with a few things)
A pair of black smooth pants from kohls
A pair of cool looking leather boots I got last Christmas
a black pirate shirt I bought on amazon
A cape
a tunic
a belt
and of course...
WEAPONS!
PS. you might also need an awesome friend who owns a horse and a nice camera and loves to take pictures! These pictures were taken by Evelyn Ashby at "The Raven and the Writer." go take a look at her stuff here http://intothewesternwild.blogspot.com/

And with out further ado.....the pictures

Yes I know, I am pretty sure they did not have combo's back then, beg pardon, it was the only black bow we had and I was not about to paint our expensive one

   Yes they really let me ride the horse, she just forgot to give me the reins for that picture, (I can ride)

 

Sorry there are so many, haha you are just seeing a droplet compared to the amount we took. These are my absolute FAVS. Thank you Eve! (And Mal and Chester)

Festive Fun Foods Part II Chocolate Trolls

So here is the second holiday treat I promised. A recent Christmas tradition in our home, these little guys are Chocolate Trolls after the trolls from the movie Frozen. Disclaimer: they do not look like the trolls in the movie! My baby sister called them that and it has....stuck! But they are just as cute and yummy!
Anywhooo

*this is what they look like flattened*

What you need:
A frying pan
A wooden spoon
A cookie sheet or cutting board (anything that wont crack in the freezer)
1 Cup of chocolate chips
1 Cup of peanut butter (with nuts is always better!)
3 Cups of cereal (we use Kashi Go-Lean, it is the best!)
1 Cup of mini marshmallows

Take your chocolate and melt it in the frying pan. Make sure the heat is on low. Better to learn patience then burn your chocolate, and trust me, it burns fast!
Now add your peanut butter, mix till it looks like melted frosting. Now we add the cereal, stir it really well and remove from your burner. Give it a few seconds to cool down just a little bit, you don't want to liquefy you marshmallows, but you do want to be able to work with it, so make sure it is still warm.  Now that it looks like Rocky-Road ice cream, take a spoon and make little balls or hills on your cookie sheet. Now put them in your freezer, this part takes about fifteen minutes. When they are done you can put them in a Tupperware or baggies, but keep them in the freezer.
These little babies taste SO good frozen, they are nice, chewy and cold!
Enjoy!

Festive Fun Foods Part I Apple Butter

In lieu of the holiday season so fast approaching us, I though I would share with you two of my favorite holiday recipes that our family has used since I could remember.

For the first; a harvest delight: Cinnamon-Apple Butter. If I ever what to make my brother happy I say I will make him some.


What you need:
A large bowl (depending on how many apples you use, I used 20+ so I needed a big one)
A large Teflon pot (Dutch oven)
Wooden spoon
Mill or grinder (a blender or food processor will work too)
Cinnamon
Vinegar (any vinegar will do, but our family prefers apple cider vinegar)
Sugar
Nutmeg
And of Course.....Apples, I use ones that we would not necessarily eat i.e.. bruised, cut or just ugly/old looking.

So if you are using the mill you can simply cut your apples into quarters. If you are using a blender or  food processor then I highly suggest you peel and core your apples. You may now proceed to boil them in your large Teflon pot just as if you were making mashed potatoes.

When the apples are soft, and basically falling apart, is when you can take them off the oven. You now grind them through your mill, or food processor, blender, whatever!
It should look like applesauce, does it? If it does, great! If not, keep blending/grinding.
Now, you can put your sugar in it right now and have applesauce, but that's not what we are making so, continuing on...
I used roughly 20 apples, so if you are not planning on using that much, please do downsize.
I put my applesauce back in the pot.

Add the following:
2 Cups Sugar (you can use whatever kind, even sugar in the raw, cause it will just boil away anyway. I cannot vouch for splenda though, we have never used it.) I used organic.(also, if you are not a health nut like my mom you can use 4 cups of sugar, if you don't you will just have to boil the dickens out of it)
1 Table spoon cinnamon (who cares about the measurement! Pour that baby!!!)
2 Cups vinegar (now this is key, if you don't add it, you will have cinnamon applesauce, the vinegar adds a small sweet tang that we LOVE in our butter)
The smallest pinch of nutmeg (this is not an apple pie, we don't want to be overwhelmed with the scent) you can add other spices too!

Mix it together, then let boil on low till done, or at least that's what mom says, and because I never know when "done" is,  she says its roughly (depending on how much you made)  up to five hours, but sometimes all day! (depends on how much sugar you use)

Now you can it and enjoy!  You can also freeze it and have it all winter, spring, summer, fall and winter! (it lasts a loooooooooong time in the freezer) I can't say that it lasts in the fridge very long in our house, I don't know how long it would take to ferment because it is simply gone before the due date ever arrives.
 There you go, I hope you enjoy it, its always fun to make and just as fun to eat! It goes on EVERYTHING! seriously, you can put it on toast, bread of any sort, your meat! on sandwiches, in cookies! the possibilities are endless!

Part II Chocolate Trolls coming soon

Haters gonna Hate

I have been on YouTube, Pinterest, Facebook and Tumblr recently, and one thing I found in common with each of them. HATE! I am going to get on my soapbox right now, I hope I do not step on toes or hurt anyone's ideas.

Disclaimer, I am a conservative republican, I hope that doesn't change the way you look at my blog, we all have our preferences. The following has to do with how I was raised and is based off of my own beliefs.

 

"Haters gonna Hate"

Its a joke, its a meme, its all over the place. It is used very often and I am pretty sure we have all heard of it. What does it mean? It is pretty self explanatory. And for the most part, its good to know, so that you don't spend your time with blood boiling, trying to think of a good comeback for someone.

But the haters..... As a person who has been slammed on the internet, had their family made fun of, had their militaristic background spit on etc...I would like to know what they are thinking. I would like to know what goes through their heads, why they think like they do. Are they just some thirteen year old with a trash mouth? Were they harmed by someone in the military when they were younger?

"Sticks and stone may break my bones; but words will never heart me"

This one I am sure we have all heard. Its a lie, my grandpa and both parents were in the military for years, and I hear so many people who think that the military are just bloodthirsty war mongers who crave death.

Really? Really? My mom was a doctor, and my dad flew armored helicopters. My grandpa faced disease, frostbite, and death, right in the face. He tries not to cry when he remembers his buddy being blown to bits.  He will always thank and look on the Marines as his heroes. (Frozen Chosin: look it up)

My dad was one of the first TSA inspectors, who when the military gave the call, he answered and went to New York days after 9/11.

I remember crying for days thinking he would never come home.

He and his coworkers are all but spit on by people I KNOW!

I have been called an ignorant (fatherless child)  when I voiced my opinion on YouTube {which I may add was actually pretty sound and in a  particular field I am very familiar with}. Sadly that was when I learned not to enter arguments with clientele on YouTube. I have also been put down for wanting to join the military like my family.

 

WHY? Just saying 'haters gonna hate' does not take away the wounds and scars we have been awarded by our deeds to America.

Why?

Some one please tell me?